"i don't need to see a psychologist. i don't need to be analysed, to have my problems given a name. i just need to sit with things, think about them, be given space to vent them. that's how i've ben dealing with things while i've been over here, and despite some setbacks i find it works for me. each to their own."

Harry - has it ever occurred to you that maybe you would be better off venting to a person that is qualified? Rather than us, as we clearly hardly even know you. And please stop using lower case to say 'I' - it smacks of Poor Little Me Syndrome.